Originally Posted by Ecidemon
I've been trying to quit drinking, but when you're self medicating it's difficult. I used to enjoy having a beer or 2 after work, but for the last year and a half I've drank every day because I feel I have to. I've drank since I was a teen, but not every day, and I went a year here and there where I didn't drink at all. I have a 2 year old daughter and a wife who's put up with it so far, but I know if I don't change something fast, I'll lose them both. Somehow, this still isn't enough to make me quit drinking, despite wanting to quit. I suffer from pretty severe anxiety and panic attacks, where I feel like I could drop dead any second. I started drinking every day after I lost my job xmas 2012. I've since been re-employed, at a much better company and job, but I still drink every day. Basically I traded drinking heavy Friday and/or Saturday to drinking every day. I'm also on a benzodiazepine, although less potent than xanax. My Mother, her Sister, Brother and Father were all alcoholics. Unfortunately, it killed my grandfather when I was young, and my mother new years 2001. I feel that if I don't change, this is where I'm headed.
RearView will give you some very good first hand advice.
I come from a line of alcoholics on both sides of my family. Both Grandfathers drank excessively and it ended up taking their lives. Both of my parents vowed to not be like their fathers. They have been very successful with it. They have also passed that on to me. I rarely drink, and when I do, it is more socially than anything.
The chain of alcoholism can be broken. Once you break it, you will feel so much better. I wish you the best.