Anxiety / Depression

When everything was at the worst for me, I found this great christian radio station, that really helped get me through and grow my faith. Sadly, even with my donations it changed, but all those songs really made an impact. Thanks for reminding me to have the humility to say I'm not strong enough, but with him I have all the strength I need.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCzW0VlFbgU&list=LLbXHi0eJYwUAiS_8zRDZhMA&index=327

 

I really liked these words, by the Christian singer Jenny Simmons on her song, "Heaven Waits For Me" Story Behind The Song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bs4gU41SrTk&index=326&list=LLbXHi0eJYwUAiS_8zRDZhMA



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I have been reading the other post and I wanted to say I am very sorry of what others are going through . I hope things get better for those of you who struggle with it . Mine is a little different and mine is from a person who I thought was a very close and good friend . I have known her for a while and from the first day we met and stared doing things we just clicked as the best of buds , we did everything together when it came to the outdoors with day drives and exploring and we just agreed on everything . we just clicked . I was looking for a place for myself and she came up with the idea of me moving in with her and her two teenage boys . We because we got along so well you would think it would be a good idea right ? NO ! BAD MOVE !! After a few weeks of seeing the behind the scenes and how she lived and the negativity of the way that her and the two boys talked to eachother I quickly say the drama and chaos and it took a huge toll on our friendship , She started to separate herself from me as we fought constantly , After two months of hell and stress of personal issues going on with her and her shutting me out from communication I decided to move out and got my own place . Well after I moved out we both wanted to try to work things out and get back what we once . after five months of her excluding me of whats going on in her life and her wanting to know of how I am doing or wanting to know whats going on in my life but only wanting to keep me around for our day drives and exploring , So in other words ,the last five months I was always there for her when she needed anything or when she was feeling down I wanted to be there for her but when it came to me she didnt care or want to be there for me . The only thing she wanted was our day drives as she said it was her release from her chaos life but when we were not together I felt more like an acquaintance and she kept me at arms length and she was snippy and stand offish when we texted or talked on the phone . Three weeks ago I said Enough was enough as the last time I talked to her I asked her if we would be still friends if we didnt have our day drives or exploring , She yelled at me and said yes then hung up on me so I walked away and havent talked to her since . She noticed after a few days that I was not texting or calling her as I have tryed to walk away before and she left a nasty ass message that I didnt care to listen to as I only heard the first part and I deleted it . ITs so hard to be their for someone unconditionally and they just treat you like shit . But I was also loosing sleep having anxiety attacks loosing weight and it was affecting my job . I am allot better now but its so hard to have someone treat you who you thought cared for you treat you like crap who you though was your friend .

 

It appears so true, that you don't really know someone until you live with them, which makes it hard for Christians.

 

Im just having a hard time trusting again

 

Are you a Christian?

 

That if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. (Romans 10:9)

 

CBD strains

http://www.anxietysocialnet.com/anxiety-and-medical-marijuana

 

No I am not a Christian.. my faith is the universe. And Within Myself

 

There is a woman out there for you and will be lucky to have a guy like you.

 

Thanks , i am not perfect but i am the typle of person who will help anyone in need and i would never use or control someone for my benifit . You dont take advantage of someone like she did . It just hurts but i know i am better off with out her cuz she is a taker and im a giver

 

I'm 57 and I always give people the benefit of the doubt, my wife says I'm way too trusting too. As a result I have been "burnt" by some folks including an ex wife, gf's and even relatives. You shouldn't let what happened to you effect how you interact with people. Yes you will get burned by people but you can also effect someone's life "trajectory" by trusting them, something a lot of people aren't use to, and have a positive influence on them. You sound like a good dude, there are plenty of people that are terrible, just be yourself. I see you're from York, my Grandmothers old house is off of North George. I spent a lot of time in York, I have family in Glen Rock and York.

 

Thank you for the kind words and support . I know this will pass in time but it just really sucks getting their . I hate feeling this way but b4 i met her i had such a drive and excitment after moving here from phoenix then i met her six months later and it was awsome . Two peas in a pod as they say then it went to shit when i moved in with her . I know I did the right thing by walking away and not looking back that was the first step the Second Step was recognizing I was in depression because of her 2nd right thing now I'm just pulling out of the ditch that she put me in..

 

Josh,
When you do meet the right woman and you will, try to take this really tough thing you're going through as experience necessary to meet the woman, who will be awesome, but won't make you depressed from not being the right woman.

I don't know if this is the proper analogy, think about when you got your first job or hand full of jobs. Working those first jobs gave you an idea of the type of work you would be best suited for, but also gave you the experience to get your "dream job." I guess what I'm trying to say, not all bad experiences are bad, some bad experiences gives you an idea, what you really want and this experience might help you meet your "dream girl", so even though it's hard to see now, it might just be the best thing that has ever happened in the long run.

Take care,
Mark

 

Time heals old wounds. Things will get better. I got divorced 2yrs ago and still working on getting better. Didnt help much that i am bi-polar. So i went down hill very fast. Its taking me more then two years to get back on the right track

 

I've got PTSD !!!

 

Combat?

 

First, thank you for your service and sorry to hear that you suffer from PTSD. Have you sought treatment for it?

 

I was in from 1981 - 84 no combat except for CAX exercises in 1982 -83

 

The VA is helping me