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Age ?

 

Whether you want to or not!

 

Is that what it is because I’ve come on home early a couple times because I wasn’t sleeping one more night on a mattress.

 

Couldn't get on here for several hours yesterday. Pages just wouldn't load.

Anybody else?

 

Thanks everybody for support my fever dropped last night and I’m a couple antibiotics in. Im a little closer to normal today and hopefully it turns out to be nothing. But they seem to be in a hurry makes me wonder. They just called and have me scheduled at 1:30 today for a ct scan they are not playing.

 

They're trying to get you in perfect shape for your trip, why else would it be?

 

"Sometimes reasonable men have to do unreasonable things" Marvin Heemeyer


Happy Killdozed Day

 

Got to be it!

 

^^ June 4 Needs to be a holiday ^^

 

A lot going on today!
Before
After

 

Grandby, Colorado.... My Dad and I hunted Elk just outside Grandby back in something like 1995 or 1996 I think it was. Didn't see no killdozers at the time. No damned Elk, either.

 

Morning all

Hey RJ, good to hear from you! Hope all is well, you still at the Museum?

Sounds like something on your end

 

Morning Andy, yep pretty good, considering age and the fact I was rode really hard in my younger days... Yep, still at the museum, 11 years on the board this month!! How y'all doing..

RJ

 

Hey RJ welcome back !!!

 

no real changes on this end.
They are medicating her, but its not steady yet. She will be fine on a call for a couple minutes... Then NOT.... Then maybe fine the next. But so far its pretty consistent that she is not fine anytime after 5pm. the later it gets? The more radical she is in her thoughts, statements, paranoia & flat out abusive.

Im tired. Not sleepy tired. Just fkn tired. She tells me in every call how this is "my" fault or me & the younger daughters fault. We caused this, we hurt her. Now shes telling them shes been domestically abused by me/us & all kinds of wacked stuff.

As careful as I've been with her all these years of propping her up, building her up, supporting her, through all the good & hard times we've had... I've never laid a finger on her, neither have the kids.Its always been something I've been proud of. I don't cheat or beat. & She knows that, so its the ultimate poke in the eye. The bad news is I found out from her boss at her work & a couple of coworkers that while she was laying in the hospital bed before they took her phone, she sent out texts saying she was in a car wreck because she was trying to escape domestic abuse. Sigh.

Just don't even know how to approach this. She was in a car wreck because she was trying to outrun the cops who were there to do a wellness check on her. Her paranoia took over & she panicked & fled.

She did a felony high speed evade, dangerous of of a vehicle & a major accident resulting in multiple injuries to herself & others property.

I literally did exactly what the 911 operator told me to do word for word.

Dont obstruct, dont touch... Just distract/delay her leaving till an officer can asses her.Hell I was helping her load her car to leave when he pulled up.

All I was trying to do was keep her from getting killed or hurting someone else. She almost succeeded at the killing herself part.

The people she sent this to are important to me. I really like/respect them. & Now they will look at me & say wife abuser. Sigh.

The police report shows there was no such thing & that she ran from the deputy, she was not blocked or pinned in anywhere or way.

But public opinion in a town of 6,000 is a pretty big deal. Just what I needed on top of all this stuff she is going thru.

She did get an official diagnosis but I don't want to post it. It ain't good. Even now I still want to protect her as she throws me under the bus & runs over me.

Thanks all. Just had to get it out.

sk

 

Well as can be. Got to see Weesa last month, wife and I drove from Portland to Minnesota for a wedding, saw the sights along the way and had lunch with our Montana friend. We were wondering how you were doing.

 

Just been busy and winding down with work here, retire in 8 months.. I was wondering how Weesa was doing too, I'm trying to get back on here a bit more..

RJ

 

It’s hard and you can only do what you can. Reach out to a therapist. They can help you work your way through this. PsychologyToday.com You can and will get through this.