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Good to hear from you

 

Hang in there man, it’s gotta be tough

 

The emotional drain must be crushing. Don't worry about her boss/co-workers...they have eyes & ears, they'll figure it out. As Paul @vssman said, talk to a therapist. Don't blame yourself.

 

It’s nice to know that you haven’t been eaten by Grizzly bears looks like you’re having some fun

 

Hazel loves her new backpack!

 

Glad you know it’s not your fault, and this disease in her mind is a horrible thing. Hang in there and find a good therapist you can talk with…it’ll help.

 

Nice view !!! , but it's 360° of open wilderness
and the Military term "Watch your six " comes to mind

 

That's awesome and it looks like she likes It !!

 

A lot of #2 being dumped, but it is a nice view

 

A poo with a view

 

Bit of a rough day. Had another go round with mother and her gaslighting. Basically she wants to cut back on the aides and expects me and my sister to fill in. The discussion turned rather ugly. So that kicked the mood right in the arse and turned up the anxiety sky high. I was packing to go to the Cape for a few weeks but question if I should even go. I’ll be alone for several days until my sister shows up mid next week. I suppose I should go as MermAndy is already in the car and I don’t want to disappoint. Both my wife and daughter are out this evening so I have no one to bitch to. I swear it’s a conspiracy!

 

That’s gotta be tough, you know it’s not how she really feels

 

That’s the thing. It really is how she is. My parents were abusive; both physical and emotional. My oldest sister had he nose broken by my father. He also broke a guitar over her back. I was more emotionally manipulated. My father once shot the nail gun at my feet when I was 11. Talk about being frightened. He laughed. Mom was self centered and drove some of the abuse that my father would do. When you’re a young teen and hear your parents tell you “You’ll never amount to anything” sticks with you.

 

F&@$ , that’s a lot to process! I assumed it was an old age/ dementia thing. Remember you have to take care of you first and foremost.

 

Thanks Jim.

 

It must be the "season" for this stuff!

Thank everybody for their input!! Have done a couple online sessions already.

 

Another sleepless night, I got about 3 hrs and woke up. I'm sore from moving and cutting up more logs, I thought that I'd sleep well tonight.

Very scenic! Are you enjoying Idaho? I've never had to deal with de-pooing, are the dump stations marked on road maps or something like that?

 

Mornin’

 

Morning folks cooler and muggy on this mornings walk. Coffee is tasting pretty good today